Am I in a Jealousy?

Am I in a jealousy?
It was a big question.
No matter it would be exist or just stay in my mind.

Am I in a jealousy?
It still needs the answer.
No matter it just an ego or persistence.

Am I in a jealousy?
I will try to find out.
No matter it will hurt me much.

Am I in a jealousy?
Then i have found that,

Life is about giving.
So, no more asking.

Life is about understanding.
So, no more complaining.

Life is about forgiving.
So, no more exhausting.

Am I in a jealousy?
I have ever, but it would be NO then..

He has give more than I need.
Even rarely it was something that I want,
Actually it was the real needs of me.

He has understand me more than anyone else.
Even sometimes I had never realized it,
Actually it giving me more spirit.

He has forgive me more than I know.
Even frequently I was doing many mistakes
,Actually it permit me to recharge my life.

Am I in a jealousy?
No, because I don’t need to be jealous.

“Then, which of the favor of your Lord will you deny?” (Ar-Rahman:13)

“Dijadikan indah pada (pandangan) manusia kecintaan kepada apa-apa yang diingini. Itulah kesenangan hidup di dunia, dan di sisi Allah lah tempat kembali yang baik” (Qs Ali Imron 14)

Dan ingatlah “Seorang mukmin itu merasa cemburu, sedangkan Allah lebih
besar rasa cemburunya daripada dirinya.” (HR. Bukhari dan Muslim)